Between homes

This poem is my second written completely in English, although, of course, with my mind thinking in Spanish. It was written for the "Finding your voice" workshop, a six-week creative writing program for newcomers in Canada, conducted during Saturday mornings in the Millenium Library. 

My home is today on a bridge between two homes.

I always thought my home was
a small square with a few walls
with idiosyncratic tiles in every room,
a 60 metres square plus 6 for the balcony square
hidden in a narrow middle-street cutting a block
(or as we call it here, an apple),
near the Mediterranean sea,
by which shore I found many times a small cottage
flying as a lost kite
in the sky.

My home is today on the bridge between two homes
with 7 light-months distance between them.

I thought it was where I was safe,
and home turned to be where my family was and where it is and will be
and so today my home is made of tiny pieces of
concrete, counters, cables and cells;
acrylics across accelerated afternoons of
safe sadness
and a part of the heaven.

My home is today on the bridge between two homes
with 7 light-months distance between them,
with a handrail made of a mosaic of longings to travel,
(considerating that at last going back home is an amusing journey);
a wanderlust,
and with every landscape
spread on the immense sky of Winnipeg.

And sometimes,
in the long afternoons of Winnipeg,
under these skies that were so easy
to love,
I make a few steps on this bridge
and my fingers join the borders
of every navy blue piece
of the mosaic on the handrail
(blue navy is the tragedy's colour)
and I step back
and I order my feet to stop just a while:
−stop
and carrying in my bagpack the sharp callosities of my heels
when I think of walking back to my first home
(no matter from where),
and embracing the strong idea
that Home, with a capital letter,
is where you,
with purpose,
no fear,
no doubts,
no dreads,  
without saying "excuse me" nor "sorry"
fart on the couch.

My home is today on the bridge between two homes that meet.